I know this is my second post today, but I needed to get this out.
So, I have big news!
You might already know that I do music in school and we do school concerts where anyone can come to watch.
You might also know that I’m a panicking mess and I always freak out. However, this time it’s different.
I’m doing a solo. And I’m singing whilst playing the piano. I think I’ll actually pass out as soon as I go on stage.
My friend (TB) had to practically drag me to my teacher to tell him that I’d like to do a solo in the concert, (which I’ve wanted to tell him since I’ve started music).
However, I didn’t think he’d actually say yes. I mean, I love singing and I love playing the piano. But I’ve never sang in front of an audience, especially not alone.
I’m so scared and I know that I’m gong to freak out and mess up. It’s horrible. The thing that I love doing, I’m too scared to do in front of people.
I just can’t stop thinking of all the things that could go wrong. I could forget the lines. I could forget my notes. I could freeze in front of everyone. I could be terrible.
I don’t want to back out though. Because I know that if I back out then I’ll let everyone down.
I don’t know if I’m going to do it or not. I’m 100% going to try, but I don’t know how that’ll go.
The last concert that I did went really good! However, that was in a band and I was only playing on the piano. Therefore, the audience was mainly focused on the singers. But this time, the whole audience’s eyes will be staring at me from there seats, just waiting for me to mess up.
I’m not going to explain how it makes me feel when I go on stage because I explained that in my other blog. If you’d like to read it, it’s called ‘Stage Fright And Anxiety.’
I don’t know if I should do the concert or not. If I do it then so many things could go wrong. However, if I don’t do it; I’ll let everyone down and I know that I’ll regret it.